After coming home from a working vacation, and back to real life I started to question how to keep the magic of the time away while going back to my day job and family life. While I was away I was working on my soul work. My artistic work that lights me up inside. I had more energy than I had had since the last working vacation this year, but as soon as I came home and had to go back to my responsibilities and my day job which does not light me up, my energy dwindled. I was no longer jumping out of bed to start my day, and my excitement has waned. Unfortunately I can not give up my day job at this point, but how to keep the magic of my soul work alive and kicking so I have the energy to work on it after work?
I've decided I have to be gentle with myself. Even though I was greeting the day energetically last week and working on my true work, I was still tired by 9:00 and ready for bed. I can't expect myself to maintain constant energy without breaks and some days off. Even if I come home and turn on the t.v. for a night, and don't do any extra work, that is ok. My art, my calling, it's a lifelong path, not something I should feel I have to rush through.
Today I'm writing this on my lunch break. Sneaking in time where I would normally be playing on my phone or some other mindless activity. Tonight hopefully I will feel energetic enough to paint, or sculpt. Even if it's only for 5 minutes. It's 5 minutes more than yesterday. One more small step down the road to where I want to be.
I've also decided while I'm going to look at the overall big picture when I need to, I'm not going to stress myself out thinking I should be further along the path (again, long term journey!). I've been an artist for close to 6 years now, and I'm still barely off the starting line, and I'm just fine with that. Slow and steady, slow and steady